Poem #16 Beauty
I want always to be useful. But today, I spent thousands of dollars on a mission to straighten my teeth Which provides no use at all. The teeth work…
What’s it all about, Alfred Hitchcock?
Why did you ruin my love for you?
But was it actually you that I loved? Or what you disseminated
On the virgin celluloid?
(Woody Allen, #youtoo.)
Your invitations
Were irresistible.
As were my feelings as I watched,
Taking in all the imperfections the broken halide crystals
Left on the ancient film stock
The dated hairstyles
The inevitable cameo
You always created a sense of place
I met you there, didn’t I?
With a bottle of cold, tangy white wine
Alone in my apartment, my lover out till midnight
You teased me the way he did,
You were here, and he was not.
You teased me the way he did,
I was not immune to believing
I should be grateful for male attention
In whatever form it may take.
In whatever form it may take.
One of your blond ingenues
Cherry-picked for fame,
Groomed
Graced with attention.
When I think about what I loved
––What we shared––
Your art, my reaction to it––
I see it as a spell you cast
Province of witches—even this you stole from women:
Vertigo’s mesmerizing arc shot
Your vision inseminated my young self
Do I now have to reject my own?
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Wow. Thanks, Nerissa. How DO we take into consideration what we now know about the artists who once inspired/mesmerized us (and whose work still does)? How do we respond to the newly realized layers of awfulness behind the genius?